Act 3

I hate how there's things that are beyond our comprehension that we must fear. If it were not such a horrible sin, suicide would be the easiest answer for many of our problems. Oh well, I must go on and make my father proud.


The play, oh yes, the play. What a success. That Claudius really stirred up quite a commotion as the king in the play was killed. Right where I want you Claudius, right where I want you.


I also had a chance to finally seal the deal and get it over with earlier.  I could not do it however. For heaven's sakes, the man was in prayer and asking for forgiveness! How horrible would I be to kill him while in prayer for forgiveness? That would only bring me down to his level. No, that is not who I want to be.

"Ham: Now might I do it pat, now he is praying./

          And now I'll do't. And so he goes to heaven;/

          And so am I revenged. That would be scann'd;/

          A villain kills my father, and for that,/

          I, his sole son, do this same villain send/

          to heaven./

          O, this is hire and salary, not revenge./"

                               (Act 3, Scene 3)

What a turn of events has taken place, and that isn't the end of this entry. While speaking to my mother earlier in her closet about my father, a figure made itself known in the arras and so I stabbed it, hoping it to be that vicious Claudius. It wasn't however, it was Polonius. This means nothing to me though and carries no weight on me. It did lead me to revealing the truth behind Claudius however to my mother and she now knows of the reality behind my madness. It also hurt how the ghost appeared to me once more, but my mother could not see it. Oh life, you only continue to make it more difficult to continue you.

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